The day was 4th of July 2008 when I registered for my ps2. At that time I had promised myself to perform my best in the coming 5 months. I had looked this interning as an opportunity to explore my interests, gauge myself under the meter of professionalism. That was the moment when I had thought of 'making it BIG'. I was waiting for the period to begin. Finally, it began on the 5th of July.
It has been 4 months now and from the place, where I am standing right now, I look back at that day just to find that the lift which I had grabbed then, took me downtown instead of adding any value to my brain.
Who is to take the responsibility for this downturn?
I think the answer lies in the confession that I am about to make.
I wasted the time in these 4 months. The activities that took my time were: sleeping and watching movies.
The reason behind the truth that I did not get any work is my disinterest in the company that developed due to my laziness. I shall not blame the working conditions of the company for that laziness.
It feels so cheap to even say that I am a BITSian for BITS gave me so many chances to recover from my drawbacks but I never paid any heed to them.
Well, even when I got work in area of slightest interest, I ruined the opportunity to display my talent, my sincerity, my hard work etc. by missing out my days in useless dreaming. Now, I wonder whether I have ever possessed any of these.
To feel a bit of good in myself I had joined a coaching to prepare for CAT !! Well, there they expect me to win horizons and I seem to have no concern about them or anyone for that matter.
Just to feel much better about that I am putting my hard work, I recently started cycling 20kms daily.
I do not know what have I been doing these 4 months and certainly have no idea what I must do in the remaining 1 month.
None ever knew what I actually had been doing these months. Not even the ones who did everything in their power to provide me with the best.
And now I know it will be shameful for those who know me to call me their friend or known to. Hence, I feel I must go, disappear somewhere, never come back, never talk to anyone.
But that is not what I want to do.
I want to be given one more chance to reinvent my potential. Just one last chance...
PS: I do not need pities of any kind so please spare me the trouble.
2 comments:
Better late than never. It was good to know that you realize what you've done of late. So, get going again. Shed all the laziness now! My best wishes with you. I'd recommend you the song 'Stand' by Rascal Flatts. Give this song a listen. I know I'm not the best person to talk of things like laziness but somehow everyone loves to grab the opportunity to lecture around. So do I. :P
pretty much the same here :|
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