The day was 4th of July 2008 when I registered for my ps2. At that time I had promised myself to perform my best in the coming 5 months. I had looked this interning as an opportunity to explore my interests, gauge myself under the meter of professionalism. That was the moment when I had thought of 'making it BIG'. I was waiting for the period to begin. Finally, it began on the 5th of July.
It has been 4 months now and from the place, where I am standing right now, I look back at that day just to find that the lift which I had grabbed then, took me downtown instead of adding any value to my brain.
Who is to take the responsibility for this downturn?
I think the answer lies in the confession that I am about to make.
I wasted the time in these 4 months. The activities that took my time were: sleeping and watching movies.
The reason behind the truth that I did not get any work is my disinterest in the company that developed due to my laziness. I shall not blame the working conditions of the company for that laziness.
It feels so cheap to even say that I am a BITSian for BITS gave me so many chances to recover from my drawbacks but I never paid any heed to them.
Well, even when I got work in area of slightest interest, I ruined the opportunity to display my talent, my sincerity, my hard work etc. by missing out my days in useless dreaming. Now, I wonder whether I have ever possessed any of these.
To feel a bit of good in myself I had joined a coaching to prepare for CAT !! Well, there they expect me to win horizons and I seem to have no concern about them or anyone for that matter.
Just to feel much better about that I am putting my hard work, I recently started cycling 20kms daily.
I do not know what have I been doing these 4 months and certainly have no idea what I must do in the remaining 1 month.
None ever knew what I actually had been doing these months. Not even the ones who did everything in their power to provide me with the best.
And now I know it will be shameful for those who know me to call me their friend or known to. Hence, I feel I must go, disappear somewhere, never come back, never talk to anyone.
But that is not what I want to do.
I want to be given one more chance to reinvent my potential. Just one last chance...
PS: I do not need pities of any kind so please spare me the trouble.
