Ho-Ho !

How time changes ! From the time of our forefathers when we celebrated religion-specific festivals, till today when due to globalisation we find reason to be happy in any festive season ! We have come a long way :)

It is Christmas ! The birth of Lord Jesus ! The time of gifts and goodies ! The time of expecting surprises ! Few of us get lucky everytime ! :)

It is winter ! The season to have every reason for hugging, holding hands, cuddling ! The season to have every reason to lie in blankets and be happy ! The season to put on as many clothes as possible so that even a lean looks stud ! The season when you actually want to feel close to ones whom you care about !

I belive, winter is the season for you ! Yes, for you not to tell but show how close you are and want to be to your family, friends and love ! [loves for many of you ;)] It is a season when the warmth of a relationship adopts its literal meaning.

It is my season. I love this season and always want to be at a chilled place during this period of the year...do NOT suggest a REFRIGERATOR plz, for it will be the worst of the PJ's at this moment !

Definitely I do not want to be alone as well. I wish to be close to those who love me. That is how I like to enjoy this winter and every other coming in future.

This season, superficially may be a season of 0 degrees but in spirit this season is responsible to feel the warmth of a relationship - literally.

Especially, this year I am excited about this season for it has some add-on with it. I feel it. :)

Make a Wish ! Enjoy Winters ! Merry Christmas ! Happy New Year ! :)

The current state: Blank

Date: 22nd December 2008

Time: 2:30 p.m.

I hate this part of the day when I am at home all alone. Moreover, electricity is gone and the usb modem that connects me to internet is also not with me. I have some exams approaching but my preparation is not delivering me satisfactorily results. I am dragged down-to-earth every time I give a test and every time I am high on adrenaline while preparing. It is like a sine curve or a cosine curve. Thus average comes to be x = 0; on the Euclidian plane. No, not a tangent curve, never been to infinity.

I am not disappointed but belittled in myself, yet I am not depressed. I see opportunities in every failure. I see motivation to try harder. I have faith in myself for I know I am sent here for some purpose. The doubt is, whether my real purpose and my expectation of what that purpose actually is, are same.

Theese days there is a new sensation in my life that keeps tingling my emotions. I do not know what does it want from me? Clueless!  Baffled! Though, it does not come face to face but it keeps disturbing me. It is not that I do not like it. I love it. I become enthusiastic everytime it tingles me. I play with it. I try to give it back the same sensation. Everytime it brings some memories which I cherish.

But, I am tired of this hide n seek. I like to be straight in everything. I sometimes do not understand hints and moreover, I do not have a helpline. The situation is very delicate. I am not at all sure how to handle it. Yet, I keep trying various ways.

The reason for my motivation and faith, for I being high on adrenaline, is this sensation.

hmmm...for the first time I am not getting words to describe my situation. I want to talk this out to the one causing this sensation but fate is never in favour of it. Let guts alone.

The extreme of this situation may be indicated by the following fact:

In this extreme winter, when shiver runs down the body of a human, I am not feeling the coldness of the weather. I more often feel warm in the innerself. Moreover, sometimes my superficial is so cold, it seems as all my body warmth is directed to one single point, where my innerself resides.

Going Ahead !!

Allright !! It is time.

Yes this is my last week of PS2 and am !@#$%^&*() about it. That is a mixture of emotions. Well, undoubtedly, I am glad that PS2 is over, for I will not be bothered by the 'sitting ducks' anymore, not that they have bothered me too much but they did not bother me at all, that counts.

So here I leave the professional world (though for short time but who cares about time, collegiates have loads of it) to enter back into the college world, which I have been missing like anything; my friends, my room, hangouts, chats, DC !!

Oh Dear God !! I am so excited about it. But there is this !@#$%^&*() about my departure from Pune !!

Initially I did not like this place at all; crowded streets, noisy malls, luterey auto-waale, poor bus service, dust, pollution and so on.

But as time went by I gathered some things to admire like my coaching teachers whom I got along with very well, my coaching classmates (though only 6), some great moments with my roomies; birthdays, cycling trips, shouting n howling, teasing, playing cards, fun in movies, dinner time masti, BFL masti, late nitouts and loads more.

There are some more beautiful things that are yet to happen and so I am hoping for the best.

The point is, I do not want to go from this place. I want to hang out with my buddies here, want to make some new friends here, want to roam around with them, spend some quality time with those whom I want to be with.

For the first time in my complete life till now, I have felt responsible for my deeds, for the first time I earned some cash and spend it as per my wish, for the first time I had the right to be free, many things for the first time happened to me in this city and I do not want to part with them !!

But I guess what happens has to happen and you can only get carried away by them. And so, the week ahead I will be looking forward to some good things to happen with me.

I think that is what they call Going Ahead !! :)